i have just woken up and everything fels beautiful. i slept at least eleven hours and the fever sems to be fading! my blankets feels softer and i am not freezing anymore, the room is filled with darkness from outside, i love the swedish winters here in the north when the sun never sihnes. god i sound like such a goth, but it is true. it is cozy! maybe i will light some candles and drink some tea now.
everything is ruined.
it is not darknes from outside, its a.. curtain. thank you. a curtain. since i slept in my mums bed i did not realize that. thanks god thanks.
AND YES I SLEEP IN MY MUMS BED DO YA HAvE A PROBLEM WITH THAT?!?!1
spending the morning cutting and glueing in my thinspobook.
signe tells me its lovely that i am pro ana but still eats.
i am not pro ana, the thing is really that i can laugh at evrything and everyone
even at people whos mothers get cancer
i want to go on ne of these nice pro ana diets, like maybe the one where you eat 200 kcals the first day, 400 on day two, 600 on third and on the last day 800, then you start over again. its a certain comfort in countig the magic numbers of calories.
only bad thing though is that your metamoblism stops, your period dissapears and you get tired and unhappy.
it aint worth it! nop, i got to do this the hard way, the change-on-long-term-blaha-blaha
appearantly, saras cousin anders reads my bog, sometimes even before she does it. i just want to say
hi anders! (he is going to be a police so now you know bitches watch out)